Taking a few steps back, to eventually move forward.


Lately its felt like we’ve been thrown a million steps back.  Sitting in our apartment that looks like we are stuck in a bad 80’s sitcom will make you feel that way.  The washing machine is so ridiculously old that I have to hand wash and wring out everything to get everything clean, but its not just because we somehow landed in a cockroach infested apartment that makes me feel like that.  Before going to Ireland we were making a lot more money, living in a nice little farm cottage and just enjoying our non stinky environment, but taking so many steps back has made me realize that sometimes you need to take a few steps back to get put on the life path that you want.

Yes, back in the day we were making more money, but Carl was lost and hating his job.  We sold all our stuff to be able to live in Ireland and now we have nothing, but to be honest all the stuff we had was really just not us.  Outdated couches, hand me downs and a bed that had some serious spring issues doesn’t exactly scream, life path I want to be one.  Going to Ireland made us realize how we don’t want to live, we don’t want to be always worrying about money, so never actually doing anything, I never want to make my children feel like giant financial burdens that are just a nuisance, we want to go on more adventures no matter how small and we want to move to a place with a cooler climate.

Our trip to Ireland made us grow, really soul search and figure out plans and wants.  Carl wants to go into finance and he finally has his foot in the door.  yes, he is super bored and doesn’t feel like he’s there yet, but he’s got clear goals now and knows what he wants.  After years of wanting to become a Psychologist and having my family completely put me off of it, I’ve decided to live my own life and just be who I want to be.  I mean when you’re reading psychology test books for fun, maybe its time you get the ball rolling and get started in the career path I want to be on.

So sometimes you get thrown off the path that you assumed was the path you were suppose to be on, because it was easy and convenient.  To be led onto the path that’s going to make you stronger and give you more than you expected.  We’ve been thrown off the train, and shocked by all the trails that have been put in our way over such a short period of time, but I’ve realized something, there is never a perfect time for anything, and the best things in life are the unexpected, that turns into the best parts of your life.